Memoirs http://memoirs.bloghi.com/ Mon, 23 Nov 2009 21:46:20 +0000 http://bloghi.com/ http://memoirs.bloghi.com/img_ch.hi?id=2357 Memoirs http://memoirs.bloghi.com/ C again...still C http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2009/05/09/c-again-still-c.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2009/05/09/c-again-still-c.html#comments Sat, 09 May 2009 00:58:03 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2009/05/09/c-again-still-c.html I often pause and think if I will ever meet you.  It would be like the most pleasant ray of soft sunlight glowing on me if I was just sitting in a restaurant and you entered, walked over to my table, and sat down.  I wouldn't notice my... I often pause and think if I will ever meet you.  It would be like the most pleasant ray of soft sunlight glowing on me if I was just sitting in a restaurant and you entered, walked over to my table, and sat down.  I wouldn't notice my entree dish because you would be the only dish in my thoughts. I would just sit, look at you, and just enjoy listening to you chat about anything that you chose to talk about.  The pleasure would really be sharing a moment with you. P, make my dream come true.  It has always been you]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2009/05/09/c-again-still-c.html#comments why not? http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2009/05/08/why-not.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2009/05/08/why-not.html#comments Fri, 08 May 2009 04:58:13 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2009/05/08/why-not.html i've been away for an entire year...amazing...i've just read a lot of posts and realized how my internet life was affecting my real life. not anymore. i don't spend far as much time here as i used to and from all that people i used to talk to i'm... http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2009/05/08/why-not.html#comments ilv http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2008/01/19/ilv.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2008/01/19/ilv.html#comments Sat, 19 Jan 2008 01:52:06 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2008/01/19/ilv.html I LOVE YOU P-o.k. if it makes you feel less threathened-as a freind-but as for your sweet ass-the sexyist ass ive ever seen-i want it as a man that has dreamed of you for so many years-deal with it-sorry i got your message late-it really... ]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2008/01/19/ilv.html#comments a message...once in a while http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2008/01/18/a-message-once-in-a-while.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2008/01/18/a-message-once-in-a-while.html#comments Fri, 18 Jan 2008 00:39:39 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2008/01/18/a-message-once-in-a-while.html  i keep having to go to your blog to be with you-yes it sounds stupid but its where i go to get a little momenty with you-some days i truly miss you profoundly-so i just pop in spend a little time reading your posts which to me is like reading...  i keep having to go to your blog to be with you-yes it sounds stupid but its where i go to get a little momenty with you-some days i truly miss you profoundly-so i just pop in spend a little time reading your posts which to me is like reading your mind-being able to get that means a lot to me-sometimes i read the post i knew you wrote to me it reminds me of a time you felt differently-iam not trying to be an ass its just nostalgic i guess

]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2008/01/18/a-message-once-in-a-while.html#comments u http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/12/27/u.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/12/27/u.html#comments Thu, 27 Dec 2007 14:20:09 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/12/27/u.html all hype aside you mean so much to me- i want you to know i get so many thoughts of you and believe me there not all sexual i get many just wondering what spening a day with you would be like-laughing with you smelling you hearing your words in my... http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/12/27/u.html#comments calvin http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/12/22/calvin.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/12/22/calvin.html#comments Sat, 22 Dec 2007 02:44:19 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/12/22/calvin.html "I wish you were online. I will definitely try to catch you online prior to Christmas. The top of my Christmas "wish list" is you and second is to say "Merry Christmas" to you.I just checked my e-mail and I know you are fully aware of my thoughts... "I wish you were online. I will definitely try to catch you online prior to Christmas. The top of my Christmas "wish list" is you and second is to say "Merry Christmas" to you.I just checked my e-mail and I know you are fully aware of my thoughts this minute. You know me and you know what I am thinking.I owe you "big time" and I want to say I will reciprocate in kind. I also want to say "Thank you, Precious". I will cherish it. P, you are a naturally beautiful and precious angle to me. You are also a nice and special character and personality. I just spelled out that you are the complete package and there is no question as to why I have no choice but to adore you.I looked at the natural beauty and sexy image in my e-mail and I wanted to kiss my computer monitor. I could only stare, wish, and dream. My thoughts were, "I will always L--E her no matter what obstacles stand in the way. I would like to kiss you so much! Ok, you know that old saying that states "we dream about those things that are prevalent on our minds at bedtime". I wonder what my dreams will be about tonight??? The current time locally is "bedtime"!! Sweet hugs and kisses to you, Calvin  P, always be happy, Honey! You are so worth it. Oh, by the way, I always (always) repay my debts. I have principles and that is a lasting fact.Oh, did I mention that I do love you? Oh, sorry, I mean "l--e" you."]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/12/22/calvin.html#comments not much to say... http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/11/14/not-much-to-say.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/11/14/not-much-to-say.html#comments Wed, 14 Nov 2007 02:32:34 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/11/14/not-much-to-say.html a lot has happened.... i missed E's birthday too...i did!! for the first time in 4 years.... i also met A!!! for real...we spent a week together...yeah he is just the way i thought he was gonna be. right now i don't have time for anything im working... http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/11/14/not-much-to-say.html#comments another year... http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/24/another-year.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/24/another-year.html#comments Mon, 24 Sep 2007 02:54:20 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/24/another-year.html i misssed your birthday-that became painfuly obvious when i went on your blog saw another pic of you and him-hes your freind .iam not-its obvious what he is to you-hes the one that remenbers your birthday-come to be with you-writes and dedicates his... i misssed your birthday-that became painfuly obvious when i went on your blog saw another pic of you and him-hes your freind .iam not-its obvious what he is to you-hes the one that remenbers your birthday-come to be with you-writes and dedicates his blog to you-calls you all the time and remembers your birthday and does special things to you thats what a freind is-iam not that-happy belated birthday-i wish you all the best

the fault is entirely mine not you-lesson learnt-theres no place for me in your life p it got filled a long time ago-its becoming more clear everyday-i have an awful memory -i cant even remember my father's birthday -i can tell you the aggregate imput of fed capital infusiion into the market in i month it stands at 350 billion-more important things i forget-you have no fault here it is all me-i have accepted it now

]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/24/another-year.html#comments memories... http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/18/memories.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/18/memories.html#comments Tue, 18 Sep 2007 03:11:32 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/18/memories.html you just dont know how hard it was for me...i almost grab the shit out of you that one time we was on the elevator alone until i caught myself ]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/18/memories.html#comments you.... http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/09/you.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/09/you.html#comments Sun, 09 Sep 2007 04:22:26 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/09/you.html you know i want to say this-i love you and i always will-call this all a fantasy its not to me-you have a part of me that runs so deep i cant get rid of you from within-and theres part of me that does not want to-part of me that does-i dont want... you know i want to say this-i love you and i always will-call this all a
fantasy its not to me-you have a part of me that runs so deep i cant get rid
of you from within-and theres part of me that does not want to-part of me
that does-i dont want to out of dislike just because i dont want my needs my
wants destroying what i have with you-i dont want to pressure you-i dont
want to hurt you-i want to support you even if it means seeing others move
closer to you-for a long time now ive been reactionary -not proactive-what i
want most now is my freindship back-sure hearing about your incredible ass
would be nice-but what hurts me what has more meaning to me is the closeness
i had with you it is that i see dissapearing and you having with a-
like the picture says lost for words-no words are needed.iam going to
go back to what i had when i first met you-freindship
]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/09/you.html#comments the last few months... http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/07/the-last-few-months.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/07/the-last-few-months.html#comments Fri, 07 Sep 2007 00:37:43 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/07/the-last-few-months.html so many things to tell i don't really know where to start...i'm away from the internet and my internet life has changed a lot. besides that last month my twin came to visit me for over a week and it was a very good experience, clean and pleasant.... so many things to tell i don't really know where to start...i'm away from the internet and my internet life has changed a lot. besides that last month my twin came to visit me for over a week and it was a very good experience, clean and pleasant. with E everything is fine...i explain to him what was going on and what i wanted from him and he is always trying to get what he wants....but in a good way...it's funny. now that he has a new one in his life things are much better for him and he's much more relaxed. L has been visiting my blog every single day since i posted a few pics with my twin ...i suppose he wants to know more.... he lost all his magic...at least for me he did...M sent me a text message yesterday after a month or so without a word...i suppose he just wanted to give me more time....i didn't answer...don't wanna go on with that...too expensive...not worth it...

]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/07/the-last-few-months.html#comments a few days of reality http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/03/a-few-days-of-reality.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/03/a-few-days-of-reality.html#comments Mon, 03 Sep 2007 01:44:36 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/03/a-few-days-of-reality.html it's morning and I'm sitting on my couch half asleep with my coffee and my laptop .......and I miss u. I suppose a lot stayed unsaid between us the most important for me is to tell u that I truly appreciate the effort u made to come here and...
it's morning and I'm sitting on my couch half asleep with my coffee and my laptop .......and I miss u. I suppose a lot stayed unsaid between us the most important for me is to tell u that I truly appreciate the effort u made to come here and spend time with me...all u had to go through to get in here....thank u twin...for me it was like a dream come true cause u are exactly the man I expected u to be.....my sweet twin. now all it's left it's a sweet feeling of knowing u much better...I know the way u smell, the way u look, the way u feel....and memories....pictures in my head that I know with time they'll fade away....but the main thing...the feeling in my heart ...that's gonna stay....miss u baby
 
 
 
I cant believe the first day back in my office environment you would have me in tears...well not bad tears but after reading your letter i was filled with joy. I know that it must have been hard for you not knowing how to act with me being there and it was like if was not. Seing you for the first time i was shocked because your pictures on when you was on the cam...well they did not do you no justice as in real life. You are a beautiful woman P and the memories i have here with me from our trip will be branded in my mind never to go away.
 
I will try to get a card this week and give you a call but please if there was anything that made you feel uncomfortable about E being said or a look that you might not have shared with me then i am saying sorry on her behalf. Anyways i got a surprise for you and i hope you like it. Don't even try to figure it out because you wont be able to...smile. Let me get back to work.
]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/09/03/a-few-days-of-reality.html#comments a long story http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/07/25/a-long-story.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/07/25/a-long-story.html#comments Wed, 25 Jul 2007 16:34:31 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/07/25/a-long-story.html -i will miss you very much and you aint his fucking twin your mine-    ]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/07/25/a-long-story.html#comments the end....again http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/06/22/the-end-again.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/06/22/the-end-again.html#comments Fri, 22 Jun 2007 02:53:27 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/06/22/the-end-again.html   i have spent my entire day reading and re-reading the e-mails i have sent you-all i get is a tremendous pain in my heart and my gut-i cant think-i cant work-its killing me inside-everytime i open my e-mail and theres nothing from you-the pain...
]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/06/22/the-end-again.html#comments so many excuses http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/25/so-many-excuses.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/25/so-many-excuses.html#comments Fri, 25 May 2007 02:42:34 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/25/so-many-excuses.html "e: i got butterflies talking to you yesterday rushing here to be online tonight" he talked to his ex lover and tried to convince me that he doesn't feel anything for her anymore.....yeah whatever...and why do i even care? i don't know "e: i got butterflies talking to you yesterday rushing here to be online tonight"

he talked to his ex lover and tried to convince me that he doesn't feel anything for her anymore.....yeah whatever...and why do i even care? i don't know

]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/25/so-many-excuses.html#comments a very nice day http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/24/a-very-nice-day.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/24/a-very-nice-day.html#comments Thu, 24 May 2007 00:44:59 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/24/a-very-nice-day.html a very sweet email from A...damn i miss him!!  It was nice hearing your voice again today....actually i was about to pass out because of how sweet you sounded :-). a sweet conversation between E and me.... i miss having him in my... a very sweet email from A...damn i miss him!! 

It was nice hearing your voice again today....actually i was about to pass out because of how sweet you sounded :-).

a sweet conversation between E and me.... i miss having him in my life!!

e: i go on your blog all the time
p: i know
e: even get it translated threw google now

p: sorry for being honest
e: thats o./k i admire it of you best quality aside from your fabulous ass

p: hey we're chatting!!! isn't that amazing? it's been a while
e: yes it is feels great dont want it to end

e: sad huh-when your not around i spend my time translating shit reading your thouight ive actually threw your blog witnessed in writing your struggles
p: only a few can do that im glad u're a part of it
e: unlike your freinds i know things they dont-i ccan see what you are feeling the changes youve made

e: you will always be you know things about me noonelse does
p: and i still love u
e: i will always love you no matter where my life taks me
e: never doubt that ever
p: that's a hell of a promise
e: its a fact
p: wow
e: i will always find a way to talk to you

p: i was missing u so much
p: i was too busy to realize how much
e: you need to take the time
e: i need this in my life

]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/24/a-very-nice-day.html#comments out http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/21/out.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/21/out.html#comments Mon, 21 May 2007 03:11:21 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/21/out.html i got the new cd from joe and that always makes me miss him....i'm having a L day today....talking to him and exchanging emails made me feel good...he has that power. even when i know all he's saying is complete bullshit...even though..... he makes... http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/21/out.html#comments profile http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/16/profile.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/16/profile.html#comments Wed, 16 May 2007 02:38:33 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/16/profile.html he's a black male, around forty, light dark skin, handsome and conscious of it. he's well known and appreciated by the community, he has a high standard of life and that's the most precious thing for him. he his married, has a son and now a grandson... http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/16/profile.html#comments conversations http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/15/conversations.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/15/conversations.html#comments Tue, 15 May 2007 10:04:39 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/15/conversations.html t: P can I ask you a question now?p: suret: i hope you don't take it the wrong way but why did you contact me and ask me to add you if you didn't want us to start back talking?p: cause i wanted to have this conversation with u emails are not the... t: P can I ask you a question now?
p: sure
t: i hope you don't take it the wrong way but why did you contact me and ask me to add you if you didn't want us to start back talking?
p: cause i wanted to have this conversation with u emails are not the same
t: ok thats a fair answer
p: i didn't mean to bother u it was just a need i had inside of me like something that was unsolved
t: you didn't bother me p  I was hoping you wouldn't take it that way
p: i think u were the first person in my entire life i said i hated and im not like that...no matter what
t: i'm sorry I made you feel that way p i never meant to I will send the pictures and we can go back to the way it was
p: thank u
t: and thank you

i would like to finish this conversation today maybe exchange those pics from our trips and then go on with our lives...u know going silent again with each other...this time ...in a good way though
t: that's not a question P
p: i know
t: so your question is?
p: it's something im asking from u
t: you don't have to ask that of me
t: you can have total control of that
t: I think you know that

t: are you teaching now or still an aid?
p: im teaching esl in a language school
t: i proud of you
p: thank u
t: your welcome
p: you're welcome
 LOL
t: lol
t: the p I know and love
p: im laughing here
t: i know

 

]]> http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/15/conversations.html#comments a grandson http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/10/a-grandson.html http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/10/a-grandson.html#comments Thu, 10 May 2007 23:53:18 +0000 http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/10/a-grandson.html yesterday he sent me some pics of his grandson...a cute little baby...very handsome...it's such an odd thing. he was the most in my life once, he broke my heart like nobody before and now i feel happy for him, i know that he's still a liar and always... http://memoirs.bloghi.com/2007/05/10/a-grandson.html#comments