Memoirs

at last!!!...im all alone, relaxed and i can think and write about that email. omg i never thought he would contact me again... for real. it's completely crazy cause last year, exactly the same day L left a comment on my other blog, i remember it as if it were yesterday, it said....tell me something good.... and i answered him there was nothing good to say. exactly one year later he sends me that email...saying he just wanted to say hi. shit nobody does that ....not the same day... what is he trying to do?? he certainly made me feel a lot again, more than i would ever admit... to him or to anyone else. that's why i keep this place, to be able to open my heart without thinking twice. im not gonna answer him, i don't wanna talk to him again but i love the fact he didn't forget me. i wondered that so many times...

sometimes i wonder....

do u ever think of me?

do u ever listen to some music and think of me?

do u ever look at a teddy bear and think of me?

do u ever stand in front of a computer screen and miss me

cause no matter how hard u try nobody can take my place.

do u ever miss my voice, my accent, my laugh?

do u ever eager for our time together, for the feeling of being with me?

cause u know....

sometimes i do!!!

dec 9, 2004

and now one year later i get an email from u saying u just wanna say hi...lol.... man!! when i saw ur name... i can't explain it...

feeling completely hopeless

it was an amazing feeling

it was love and a broken heart

surprise and pain

happiness and sorrow

my heart smiled and felt ripped

all at the same time

i felt loved and cheated again

i saw ur face

and heard ur voice telling lies

i felt cozy and safe

as i used to but

a thick cold grew inside of me

hate and love

care and despise

you and me

nov 10, 2004

i suppose i felt the same again. i like so much to know u couldn't forget me, that u still think of me...i don't understand why or what for, i don't know ur reasons, i really don't but i like to think im a part of ur life as u will always be a part of mine.