Memoirs

e: your with this man -but you have to admit you done a great deal thats unfair to him. yes because i want you happy your not leaving him if i thought you might i would make him the devil  just want you to know when hurt happens it takes a long time to heal a man like him may not outwardly express it but dont think hes not feeling it you think hes apathetic doesnt care he may hurt far more than you realize
p: so what should i do.... love him as much as i can???
e: yes because your not leaving him you never will your commitment to his happiness supersedes your own i know that about you ive seen it you also suffer guilt gulit from L and so you feel you owe it to him as well there are men p built like him some call them gentle giants a man whos very sensitive but is with a woman he thinks hes extremely fortunate to have sometimes they think they dont deserve you that you could do better so even when they feel wronged they say nothing out of fear they may lose you
what develops is something unequal you have done things to him you would never do to me why because you know dam well what i would do but you knew years ago there things with him you could do get away with and you pushed it to the limit in the end it devastated him but he just retreats further inside thats the work you have to do
get that back by one admitting you wronged him and two you are equals and that you respect him sometimes you just have to say it .