Memoirs

2007/3/27

lies

@ 05:55 AM (32 months, 11 days ago)

yesterday i was talking to E on the messenger and i asked him for his phone number at work cause i wanted to hear his voice...he told me he was not at work that he was at a friend's...i said what? u've been telling me u're at work all the time...did u lie to me? and he said well yes....im at a friend's place....i told him bye E i didn't expect this from u and i turned off the computer....10m later he called me....check ur emails he said...go and check ur emails.... he had sent me 2 emails giving me his phone number and saying that it was only a joke and that he was at work that i could call him cause he was there. i did and a guy answered the phone and told me that he was in but busy at the moment if i wanted to leave a message...i said yeah tell him P called. then he sent me another email saying that lance had told him that i called and that he had to use a clients phone to call me and if i could imagine how unprofessional that had been and all because i left and didn't let him explain it was only a joke....do u understand all this shit?? cause i don't!!

"how about staying online long enough for me to explain holy shit it was a
ffucking joke you just went right off the handle"
 
 
"ohhhhhhhhhhhhh no way.... u're not gonna make me feel fucking guilty when
all this shit was ur fucking fault.....what was i supposed to think??? u
were lying to me....do u know how that made me feel? do u? i never lied to
u...never...everytime u asked me about something u had always got the truth
from me...always .....and a lie is something im not ready to accept from u..
so why did u do that???? why e???? the more i think about it the less i
understand it.....imagine i do the same to u....try to put yourself on my
shoes for a change....and u are talking about trust???????? are u fucking
crazy???? u were the one who first told me u were at work and then at a
friends house....which e should i have believed????"
 
 
"lace told me you called-iam in the meal line when he told me its now 6.54
ve been relieved heading home i had to use a client phone tro dial out to
you our phones cant dial loing distance-so i had to use there phone you
know how fucked up that looked how unprofessional-no matter iam gone thanks for
your fucking trust"
 

2007/3/21

it hurts

@ 10:08 AM (32 months, 16 days ago)
i rember that picture you told me how hot it was that summer-he took it of
you-i remember those days i couldnt believe how much i felt for you-so much
has happened i go threw your blog every chance i get as i do i realize the
very mny stages we have both travelled threw-i remember the woman that
became my best freind-who made me whole again-i felt a thriving desire in my
heart again-you took me from being broken on the ground and made me whole -i
lusted for you-loved you then was so angry with you and loved you again-now
iam feeling distant from you-and it uunnerves me-your words your pictures
your blog-iam finding comfort in it because i dont have you here anymore

2007/3/12

away

@ 09:47 AM (32 months, 25 days ago)
im gonna be away for a while...my internet life is dead now except from E's emails and C's yahoo messages....i'll be back!!

2007/3/3

didn't think twice

@ 02:01 PM (33 months, 4 days ago)

i've just found an article on the internet, an interview from L....and i sent him an email saying that i was glad his year was going so well....im not gonna get an answer but i wanted to do it

i met this new guy on hi5 last week....his name is leslie...he's kind of interesting...seems to be the jealous type...very possessive but cute...a bit skinny perphaps....