Memoirs

i love that pic cause it captures all those wonderful womanly curves that kept my eyes locked on you when ever i saw u undressing for me. it shows the softness of my woman that she tries to hide under that tough act she puts on when she says things that might make any one else think she doesn't need anything or any one to help her reach her goals. it shows that woman that excites me with every thought i have of her, every memory i have of us. when i look at that picture i can see me walking behind you just close enough that u could feel the heat of my body reflecting on to yours. i take a deep smell of ur hairs so that ur smell is inside and a part of me. i then place my hands softly on ur hips, just enough to let u know i am there, then slowly glide around to your sexy stomach and then up to ur breasts but i won't stop them there. i just glide over them just enough to make ur nipples hard. i would continue my hands up to ur neck and move ur head to the side so that i could kiss ur neck softly all over. while kissing ur neck my hands move back to those perfect breasts and hold them firmly to let them know they are where they belong. then i caress them lovingly and work my fingers out to the nipples so that i can squeeze them just enought to make them a little harder. i then slide one hand back around ur neck so i can turn ur head for a apassionate kiss while the other hand makes it back down to ur hips to turn ur body around so that my tongue can make its way deeper into ur mouth to play with yours for a while. now i have to get my hands on that wonderful ass of yours,  i slide my both hands to it and i start caressing it slowly and then squeeze it tighter and tighter until i grab hold of it and pick u up by it as u wrap ur legs around me. turn us around and place u on the bed, u open ur legs because u feel how my dick had grown during this but i cannot go inside u this soon because i know i would want u so badle that i might not be long before i explode inside u so i slide down to kiss ur neck a little more and then down further to examine ur breasts with my mouth as my tongue plays with those nipples then to ur stomach as i lick it all over and play with ur sexy belly ring as one of my hands move to run its fingers through ur pussy hairs. then my fingers will check to see just how wet u have become before sliding inside u to see how warm it is inside u. at this point i can't wait to taste u, to see how sweet ur warmth is so i look at u to make sure u can see my eyes and i slide my finger out of u and place it in my mouth as if i was sucking icing from my favorite cake. then i place my hands on ur thighs to open them and then move my fingers beside ur clit and so that i can reveal it and let my tongue see how much it can make u lose control of that wonderful body. i move my tongue over it slowly first and then faster vefore placing my mouth over it so i can sucks on it while my tongue  plays with it then i thrust my tongue  as deep inside ur pussy as it will go and then back out  so that it can slide over ur clit more.  after driving u crazy this way for quite a while, when i feel ur hands on my head holding on so i don't move from that spot that's about to make u cum, i pull away, i want to make sure  i see ur eyes when that explosion happens and i wnat u to feel my explosion at the same time so i make my way back to ur lips and share with u the sweetness that is left on my tongue as i take on of ur hands  and guide it to my hard dick. after u stroke it for a while i whisper in ur ear for u to put it inside u. u place the head on the outside of ur pussy and i slowly slide that head in but i have been waiting for this moment for so long that i don't  want to rush it so i slide  it back out and then slowly back in for a little further this time and then back out and i ask u if u wanted more. after u tell me yes and i feel ur hips arching up begging me to give u more i slide  as deep as i can listening for that exhale coming from ur chest telling me that u feel as good as i do. then we start a slow rhythm together while looking one another in the eyes and that rhythm gets faster and gaster as our hips meet harder and harder. i reach one hand under ur head so that my fingers are tangled in ur hair and the other hand under ur ass so i can  pull myself even deeper inside u and both hands hold on to what is it in them tight as i whisper to u that im about to cum, hearing this makes u more excited and i can tell by the noises coming out of that sexy throat  that u are about to join me. i feel ur fingers holding on tighter and tighter as we pull one another closer as we cum together. i feel the warmth of ur juices and u feel the shooting that is happening inside u as my dick drains every it has inside of u. our bodies tired afterwards i stay right where i am because i have just placed my claim on where i belong. one more long deep passionate kiss for us to share before i slide out of u and lay on my back and place ur head on my chest as i stroke ur silky hair and u run ur hand over the curly hair of my chest and we tell one another how well we fit together and how we were made to be right where we are. when i see u and me in that picture of u, this is where we go together every time.

this is killing me... why can't i get over u??? why can't i kick u out of my life?? i've been having a lot of Ldays lately....i miss u... i miss the way u used to make me feel, i miss ur voice, i miss ur presence, i miss ur face, i miss ur words.... i miss u sooooo much.....

today i was thinking about men on the internet...when u start talking to a guy here they are all about u... they listen to u and they wanna talk about anything...u know the world peace or even the last pink boots u saw at the mall...but in a while they change and they are all about their favorite subject...sex.... and they really don't  care if u are blonde or brunette, tall or short, fat or slim all u have to have is a pair of tits, a pussy and an ass... ohh yeah for some one thing is more important than the others.... but it's all about that...and they don't wanna hear about ur boots or poetry or music anymore ...all they want is ur body....i know internet is like a reflection of real life and that makes me wonder.... could it be that everything a guy does for a woman is always thinking about sex?? for real??? everything????

A is always here ... i mean always!!! yesterday he was here before noon around 5.30am his time!!! yeah well we are having a good time, chatting and chatting.....laughing and getting closer. yesterday he talked about wanting to love me and then he said it was all bullshit... two days ago i told him i was starting to hate the words ...i love u...that i didn't have the need of hearing those at all... so sometimes i wonder if he wants to say something but he just doesn't dare or if he is really joking about it. it doesn't bother me anyway i know what i feel for him and that is only a nice friendship nothing else... E is not online anymore at least for me and i appreciate that i suppose we are taking a break of each other without ever talking about it...it's just happening... he told me the other day that i had changed and that now i was much more like her in many aspects....so...what can i say? ( i just have a smile on my face...). L stopped coming to my other blog... it's been months... i suppose he is just getting over me....quit checking .... i can understand that....and that is all... im online only in the mornings and im feeling much better.... more alive and active.... so i suppose this therapy of less internet life is working for me....

i know i would feel very disappointed if i could meet u cause u're not hill harper...lol... u don't move like him and u don't dress like him...what a shame!!!!!!!!!!! lol... all the rest is so similar between u two... same goatee, same eyes, same skin color, u could be twins... for real...

it's been a long time but i've been away again... anyway i haven't been talking to anyone lately... only A. he is still my friend and he has proved he can keep a promise...he sent me the durag i asked him for and even being away from home he keeps calling and sending me emails...so we keep in touch must more than i've ever thought.... so all is good with him. the rest is all there...parked and i suppose waiting me to come back... or maybe not...